I just read the post and I'm sorry to hear about what your going through. I myself have been battling the big C since last July its a scary thing to have to go through. Stay optimistic technology in this field has come a long way. Keep asking questions no matter how unimportant you thing they are and use the support of loved ones and friend. You would be surprised how many people do care and are willing to help you through this. Don't be afraid to ask for help and don't think you have to do it alone. It took a lot of courage posting it and it's great to see the support everyone is giving. Stay strong Loop. We're thinking of you.